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So yea things are going really well I honestly never thought I would get a grasp on this weight loss thing I really didnt. I mean I have always wanted to lose the weight and never have I really looked at myself as big as I am but at the same time did not think I would be able to truly find something that works for me. It feels soo good!! well those of you who dont know so far I have lost 12lbs and I dont intend on stopping anytime soon. I dont see the change in my body of 12lbs lost maybe since I have so much to lose bahahsskashkhskdffhahahah..but my cousin said she sees like a difference in me so thats comforting.

I will admit one thing I am fearful of is the fact of I get bored easily of things so I am constantly having to change up the foods I eat and the workouts I do to keep my mind from getting bored and plus it keeps my body confused they call it muscle confusion so I wont hit a plateau where i stop losing weight. Another thing for me is really keeping my relationship with God number one I really dont want this weight loss thing to become an obsession and I completely lose my mind Im crazy enough as it is I dont need to be some kind of weight loss freak crazy girl idek lol.

I think Im going to do this blog thing every week so I dont over do it maybe I'll do it a little more here and there but definitely once a week is working for me right now since I am so busy with taking care of my nephew which p.s is the cutest thing on this planet but yea thats a whole other blog.

i know I havent shared how much I weigh yet Im not that brave just yet lol you will know soon enough though as of now only God and I know how much I weigh haha. I will say I want to lose 70lbs by next march which I believe is totally doable my first 40lbs I want to lose my birthday this coming September if not 40lbs definitely 30lbs so we will see Lord willing haha. As i get to every 20lbs Im going to give myself gifts another form of motivation to keep going on this journey that I have decided to take. Gosh like most people I wish I could just go somewhere, where they just suck out all the fat out of my body all at once and I walk out slim and trimmed but back to reality yup still gotta work for it uhh.

Even though I have just started on this journey a few weeks ago I already feel a change inside of me like I know I cannot ever go back to the person I was just a month ago. Its a weird feeling but its like I know Im going to do it this time like I really am and it excites me and I am filled with joy about it. I have hit my ultimate low already and I never want to go back there again. Yea never again....

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